Testimony Of My Life Journey
Sometimes we take a path which looks right; we've thought
about things, reached conclusions in which we strongly believe, and decide to
go a certain way.
It's all part of our life journey.
But life has a way of showing me when I have made a wrong
turn. This may be the right thing for others to do, it's not right for me, just at this time.
The hard thing is to acknowledge my mistake and turn
away from it, and in this present case, to take up again what I have been doing
for most of my life with Jesus; and that is to focus on prayer.
I am reminded
of one of my favourite Bible passages, Ephesians 6:10-18, which concludes: "And pray in the Spirit on all
occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert
and always keep on praying for all the Lord's people" (Ephesians
6:18).
Experience shows that this is not easy. Often there are
times of moving forward and then sliding back. I've heard many testimonies of
other people struggling a long time to get beyond their earlier mistakes,
they'll say things like: "I recognised where I was, I'd been there before,
I realised that I was going around the same mountain again"!
Forgiving someone is often hard, we think "why should I
forgive him, he was such a rat to me". But until we forgive the other
person we cannot become free, unforgiveness cramps our heart and grows into
bitterness; this hurts us badly. The other person, the one who caused the pain,
is usually unaware of our continuing anguish, they carry happily on with their
life.
I will remember the Lord's Prayer where Jesus tells us that forgiveness requires forgiving: "forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us" (Matthew 6:12), and that once forgiven our sins are gone from our Father's memory "you have put all my sins behind your back" (Isaiah 38:17), a liberating realisation.
This is where "and not look back" comes in. In my
human weakness I like to pretend that my mistakes were not mistakes; that they were things I did which would have worked
out fabulously had circumstances been a little different or I had more
resources, or people had helped more, or maybe if I just spend more time
thinking it through it will work out when I try it again. Mostly this is just
wishful thinking. So taking the focus off
me, and off the old, and really pressing into what I'm now doing
is the best way; it also means that I do not become a butterfly, touching on
this thing, then dashing over there and trying that, then having a try with
someone else's idea ..
The important thing is to find "the goal .. for which God has called me". Jesus is
always clear in what He wants us to be involved in. When we seek His will for
our life, He will say "follow
me" and show a way forward. He does this all the time for all His
people, though sometimes it is difficult, today, to know what He wants.
"For I know the
plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and
not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah
29:11).
"Very truly I
tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they
will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father"
(John 14:12).
Once I have acknowledged my mistake, healing can begin. Yes,
healing. We get damaged when we fall off our bike or get a splash of hot fat
while cooking. We also get damaged by events and circumstances in our lives,
particularly those involving other people and our relationships with them. In
my present case, acting on strongly held beliefs, thinking that I could do some
good, when in fact, I had very little connectedness or authority to influence
others or to help steer policy or decisions.
For a number of years I've been a volunteer for politicians.
They are on the conservative side. We believe: "Hey, our country is
great, over centuries we grew out of some fundamentally good ideas and
structures, we have a balance of fairness for everyone, including our minorities who belong, with us, in this
nation. We are each able to live the kind of lifestyle we want, do the kind of
work that interests us, mix with the types of people we like or admire, worship
as we wish and live a life of faith if we want. Certain established and proven
attributes of government, law and social structure have been put in place over
centuries which ensure that our hard won freedoms are maintained (see NOTE 1).
Over the past year or two I have been getting more and more
frustrated by the way our Federal government is abandoning these widely held
and long established core attributes. Our freedoms are being eroded, mostly by
political correctness (which is always
a lie being presented as a universal truth). Trish tells me that my
frustrations show when I talk to people, instead of being gracious and
peaceful, I sometimes sound angry and
unbending. This is not at all intended. I'm trying to speak gently and with
much common sense, but this is not always how it comes out.
"For the kingdom of God is not a matter of talk but of
power" (1 Corinthians 4:20).
"But we have this
treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and
not from us" (2 Corinthians 4:7).
"The weapons we
fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine
power to demolish strongholds" (2 Corinthians 10:4).
"For the Spirit
God gives us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and
self-control" (2 Timothy 1:7).
"Therefore I
glory in Christ Jesus in my service to God. I will not venture to speak of
anything except what Christ has accomplished through me in leading the Gentiles
to obey God by what I have said and done - by the power of signs and wonders,
through the power of the Spirit of God" (Romans 15:17-18).
Jesus often taught His people to pray, and to pray "always, and not give up"
(Luke 18:1-4). Sometimes we don't see an immediate response to our prayers, but
I find that knowing that I am sharing my burdens and all my issues with God is
extraordinarily reassuring. Also, frequently seeking Jesus' will for me is an
essential part of my prayer life.
"Yet, Lord my
God, give attention to your servant's prayer and his plea for mercy. Hear the
cry and the prayer that your servant is praying in your presence" (2
Chronicles 6:19).
Whilst living in New
Jersey many years ago we attended prayer meetings
based on "ACTS": "Adoration (singing and worship), Contrition (repentance
and forgiveness), Thanksgiving (being grateful), Supplication (prayer and
intercession)". I found this to be a great way to be balanced and to not simply come to my Lord with a big shopping list and perhaps sound like a whinger. "ACTS" has stayed
with me even if we don't see those people any more. Often now I'm less
formal in my prayers. That group also used to journal all the prayer requests
and record when that need was met. It was so very encouraging to see how many
needs were met, and in many cases,
how quickly.
"In everything
give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus toward you"
(1 Thessalonians 5:18).
"And not look back" takes on a real importance
when seen like this, pressing forward is a discipline which helps us to be
balanced and peaceful in our place in the world, and to live out "faith, hope and love" in our
life (1 Corinthians 13:13).
Amen
Favourite Bible Verses
'Jesus replied,
"No one who puts a hand to the plough and looks back is fit for service in
the kingdom of God"' (Luke 9:62).
"Finally, be
strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.
Put on the full armour of God, so that you can take your stand against
the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but
against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark
world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Therefore put on the full armour of God, so that when the day of evil comes,
you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to
stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with
the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the
readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up
the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of
the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which
is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of
prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying
for all the Lord's people" (Ephesians 6:10-18).
NOTE 1 - The Core Of Democracy - Freedoms hard won by our ancestors, most of which are based on Christian principles from the Ten Commandments of God and from Jesus' teaching:
·
Freedom of speech
·
Freedom of conscience, and by extension, freedom
of thought
·
Freedom of association, and by extension,
freedom of religion, worship and faith
·
Everyone being equal under the law, even the
Queen and Prime Minister, and by extension, giving everyone else, and expecting
for oneself, a "fair go" - a very
Australian concept, broadly and deeply felt
·
Democratic governments where every adult person
contributes to the selection of governments, and can influence how laws are
enacted and repealed
·
Being protected in our nation, internally by our
laws and police, and externally by well trained and well equipped military
forces
·
Enjoying universal health care
·
Taxation for all, together with support and
welfare systems ensuring that the rich don't eventually own all the assets, and
the poor or disabled or unable-to-cope can live, with food and shelter and can
still send their kids to school ..
Hallelujah!
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Amen.
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