On 28th September 2010 I threw myself into Jesus' hands. For 30 days I'm trusting that Jesus will fully heal me of all illnesses and diseases, some long lived (1 Peter 2:24). I am sick of being sick. I feel led to take none of the 6 medications prescribed for me, nor see any health professionals (Mark 16:18). I believe I'll become healthy, rested, alert, mobile, vigorous and sound of spirit, mind, soul and body.A Glorious Day
Today started hard. About 1:00AM I got some very bad news from our 3rd son which will cost significantly in time and money (no one was hurt). Didn't sleep much.
Today our team ran a fundraiser Indian Feast for the orphanage and pastors we support in India. This morning the time just vanished, imploded. Impatience and short tempers at our house. There was a crash on the freeway and I was nail-bitingly almost late. Then at the café everyone was looking to me to be supervisor despite my not knowing anything. So much to do and so few answers! There came a point where I was immobilised, my whole system jangling; I got my water, found a quiet corner and prayed: Lord I can't do this. Come please, bring your peace. I sat quietly for 15 minutes.
What a great night we had. Seventy four people bought tickets for the feast, and bought auction items, and gave money gifts. Those orphans and pastors will be so blessed. The fellowship among the diners and our team was wonderful, Jesus was present in the conversations and in the fun. It was a great time of multiplication. And here I am, 1:30AM, ready at last to post this onto PsalmsOfJohn.com for Jesus. Soon to bed.
A Big Question From Day 7
Is my stopping all my medications a work? Is it a challenge to God? Am I testing Him?
(Matthew 4:7) Jesus said to Satan, "It is written, 'You shall not test the Lord, your God'".
I've been pondering this question for nearly two weeks. Am I testing you Lord? Is mine an acceptable request?
Once I was settled in my heart that I was not testing my God, I did some formal study by looking in trusted commentaries and through the scriptural references and footnotes.
First, I asked my heart: "Heart, where are you? Are you still inclined towards the Lord? Is your testimony still to the honour and praise of Jesus? Is God in this? Did He speak into your desire to do this project?"
Yes. No hesitation. The Lord always looks at the heart.
(Psalm 22:22) I will declare your name to my brothers (and sisters). In the midst of the assembly, I will praise you.
Testimony is what I do. Good days and hard days, when feeling ebullient and when feeling rotten, I give testimony to the work and power and glory and grace of God in the world in our time.
It sounds then as though I am not testing Him. Rather, I am asking my Abba Daddy for something which is very near to my heart, very important in my life and also part of what He loves to give. And I am led by Him. I am not being a spoiled brat, or precocious, or greedy.
The learned scholars talk about the kind of testing as seen in Matthew 4:7 as being frivolous, pushy, forward.
A Stream of Scripture
Here is a sequence of scriptural references which I believe show clearly what kind of request it is that will test God:
• (Matthew 4:7) Satan is trying to tempt Jesus (who would not be tempted).
• (Deuteronomy 6:16) Fear the Lord your God . .
• (Exodus 17:2) They quarrelled with Moses . . and they grumbled against him.
• (Psalm 78:18) They tempted God in their heart by promoting their desires.
• (Psalm 78:41) They tempted God, and provoked the Holy One of Israel.
• (Psalm 106:14) They didn't wait for God's counsel, but gave in to craving in the desert, He sent leanness into their soul.
• (1 Corinthians 10:9) Do not wilfully sin, neither grumble.
There. Clear enough?
This is definitely a relief.
Two Things Of Which I Was Always Certain
1. My righteousness will never be even slightly tarnished. All my righteousness is in Christ Jesus. It is not something I can earn, or even lose.
(Philippians 1:11) [You are] filled with the fruits of righteousness, which are through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God.
2. If I come to the conclusion that I am testing God, then as soon as I repent and seek His forgiveness, He will immediately forgive me.
Glory be . . Thank you Jesus!
Favourite Scriptures:
(Revelation 12:11 NIV) They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.
These words have never before now had so much meaning for me!
(Revelation 19:10 NIV) ". . worship God! For the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy"
Praise Jesus.
Amen.
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Blessings.
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